Yes you are right! One simply cannot describe what it feels like to be a grandmother. I knew it would be better than I imagined but I was still totally off - by a distance that cannot be measured.
Sweet Baby One is perfect.
But along this 39 week journey something else has happened that simply will never be forgotten.
If you know me you know "how I am". I wrote the book on controlling and overbearing. Really - I should be the author. I sometimes try to not be but that usually requires way to much control and effort and I give up rather quickly and revert back to the "Mama Bear" as my family so lovingly calls me!
Daughter One grew up in Graham but I never knew her until she started dating my Son One. And since we all do not live in the same town - I have managed to not know Daughter One very well at all. She's quiet - she doesn't force her thoughts on others - you know pretty much the opposite of me!
And if I am completely - lay it all out there - honest.......... their courtship and marriage hasn't always been easy for me. And I know I have been less than the ideal mother and mother in law. Oh nothing major - just far from Leave It To Beaver and sometimes farther from where God wants me to be.
But our God works in ways we cannot imagine.
Our God showers us with a blessing when we least expect it and certainly when we never deserve it!
Son One with Daughter One and Sweet Baby One
So when she said "I want my mom and you with Lance to be in the delivery room" - I was honored - surprised - and I simply have no idea why in the world she would offer me that opportunity. Then we had several more weeks to wait and my heart just became softer and softer until last Thursday - January 8th - my heart was exactly where Jesus has needed it to be.
Our view outside the labor & delivery room was the "Heart Clinic" - I wonder if the people looking out those windows into 4413 saw the same words on the wall. That's where the "Heart Clinic" was that day -
My heart finally understood.
The tears started when the doctor came into the room and I took my place next to my son and honestly they just haven't stopped. I am really not sure when they will. I know that Daughter One and I will not always get along - I know she will definitely not appreciate that "Mama Bear" (why should she?) - but she forever has my heart. As I have shared with others about Sweet Baby One's arrival - the astonishment on their faces when I say "I was in the delivery room" - helps me to understand really just how special that was.
Now 2 baby girls have my heart. One is a woman, mother, and my Daughter One and the other is her daughter and his daughter - my Sweet Baby One.
Son One shared a devotional as we were waiting ... the scripture from Ezekiel 34:26 ~
And I will make them and the places all around my hill a blessing, and I will send down the showers in their season; they shall be showers of blessing.
Son Two told me a while back.... "you thought this baby was going to change others but I think it is changing you."
In so many ways...
The showers are here and the blessing is more than I ever imagined.
I have 2 beautiful girls to love - two beautiful girls to share this boy world with me.
Side Note - best piece of advice I could ever give:
Girls.... If you want to have a relationship with your mother in law that is simply the best in all the world - then ask her to stand by her son while his baby is being born. She will love you - she will forever be grateful.
Always, May the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ, and the love of God, and the fellowship of the Holy Spirit be with you all. 2 Corinthians 13:14.